Old Age

It is inevitable, like day coming after night, and it hits people at different ages, and in different ways, at different times. One day, you just start thinking differently, that youth, that you have held on to so tightly, for so long, you realize is gone. It signals a whole new way of thinking and looking at things. Realization sets in, and you realize that each heartbeat, could be your last.

You are acutely aware of skipped heart beats, or any unusual chest pains, wonder if this is the one. You no longer think of the future in an optimistic way, the door has slowly closed on the future, and that optimistic thinking about tomorrow, is gone.

Instead, you have a tendency to reflect, mistakes you have made, things you think you could have done differently, other paths you could have taken, what "might" have been, if only.

But then, you realize that any small change in the past, could have had consequences on today, on you, your family, your friends, and you finally realize that you would not change a thing, that if it any way altered the present, right or wrong, everthing worked out for the best.

That is the only way you can justify what you have done in the past, mistakes were not mistakes, because if you had done things that way, then this would not have happened.

So there is contentment in your life, regardless of your situation, everything you did was right, every decisions you made was correct, because you are at this point, you are alive, and possibly, if anything in the past had been done differetly, you would not be where you are today.

At some point, you become your age, for one reason or another, it is inevitable, it varies from person to person. If you are alive, you have done something right, regardless.

"If only" could have an impact on where you are today, "if only you had" could mean..........